It Poured Out As Hard As The Torrential Rain
Tonight, the tears fell down as hard as the morning rain that fell today. An emotional outpouring that felt still strange. It ended a few weeks back, but the tears just burst as if it happened just now. I sobbed and cried out till I felt there wasn’t any more to let out. I buried my face in my Beatles shirt, I let it catch the tears. I’ve never cried with my contacts on, and tonight was the first time.
Since it happened, I’ve tried to put up a brave front. I’ve done a lot to take it off my mind. I’ve been silent so that it won’t be at the top of my head, and turned myself into an unfeeling being to be able to do all this. But when thanks were murmured, and the goodbyes were exchanged with a seeming finality, the defense I’ve made just fell into pieces, the feelings were released like the breaking of a dam.
So tonight, I’m letting all the tears go out. I won’t leave anything for tomorrow. I won’t leave any more tears welled up behind my eyes. Tomorrow, friendship starts, where casual hi’s and hello’s will be exchanged, ‘kamusta’s and ‘what’s up’s will be staple greetings. Tomorrow, is the leaving of the yesterday behind with finality.
Lastly, a thank you is appropriate for letting me be. For understanding why all this has to happen, for expressing true love in setting me free. For letting me find the happiness that will eventually lead to the fulfillment of what I’m here on this earth for. For letting me be honest enough and being honest with me enough.
For loving me.