i pour out buckets of tears
as i try to rid of myself of
my evils,
and watch the rain fall
as the floor beneath me
ahead of my blurred vision
is a sea of faces
and a ringing of voices,
watching my body wrack
with sobs and shake out
my vices.
with my walls of Pride
comes down my tower
of Hate,
the debris leaving through
the backdoor gate.
as my hand reaches out
for some form
of embrace,
i find myself holding His
at the end
this long, arduous race.

This poem was written by Cybele Javier, the sister of my then classmate Camille, and was given to me during a retreat in DLSZ 11 years ago while I was a junior in high school. This was the only letter that I got to keep from the batch of letters that I received that night as the years went on.

At certain points in my life that was low, I whip out this letter and read. Sometimes, the tears well up in my eyes, and sometimes, goose bumps break out of my skin. But the one thing it doesn’t fail to do is to inspire me to open up and get up from any lows that I experience, even until now. I feel better after reading this poem each time, and I feel that it’s the higher power speaking to me, egging me on.

Now, I read it again, and I feel much better.

I feel that I’m ready to face tomorrow once again, with more vigor and more zest and challenged to push myself harder to get what I want in life, and to fulfill my purpose.

And it reminded me how I was changed that night, 11 years ago.

And how I am still partly that guy that I was back then.

4 thoughts on “THOUGHTS

  1. thanks chief πŸ˜‰ i’m always thankful, in my own little way. for the little victories and tiny defeats. the eternal balance. the constant reminders that life is brief, make no enemies, only friends, and do the good right thing πŸ™‚

  2. seryosohan na to..just wana share..this Bible text i read over and over naman whenever i feel down and basta malabo..“God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.” (Hebrews 6:10)that He looks at the better side of us and the good things we did/do, overlooking our shortcomings, imperfections, multitude of sins, and telling us to move on and reminding us of the chance & choice of correcting our paths πŸ˜€ and la lang, something that i have to apply myself, being positive. πŸ™‚osha work na…ganda poem πŸ™‚ and i always read here..keep it coming!;p

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