for the longest time, i’ve drowned my faith in worldly pleasures and excesses, thinking that these are the ways to silence the questions that have been there in my soul. i guess fate and the Creator had other things in store.
this past week had been a heavily charged one, particularly in the emotional aspect. our world, once still, and calm, was stirred by certain revelations and suddenly, it felt like being ripped apart at the seams. it was one of the few times that we’ve treaded rough waters as our seas were rarely rippled by waves. this time, it was a big enough wave to cause a gentle rocking of the boat.
then, He moved his hand masterfully to guide us in going through rough times. to our surprise, really. He timed it perfectly. He chose the right channel, and despite this writer’s hesitance to shun vagueness, he explained and stressed the points clearly. before the night’s end, i believe we were enlightened, and after a few more unavoidable bumps and movements of the boat (and really unbelievably ‘arte’ people riding along), we were able to reach the shore and touch the familiar grains of sand. home.
and i can only marvel at how it all unravelled tonight. in tears, i am humbled, and grateful. not just to Him. you can do the math 😉
after a night like this, how can i not believe?